I had this crazy pain today in my feet that felt like the most intense type of pins and needles… like my feet went to sleep… It started to shoot up my legs and I just froze. It was so painful, I just froze. I called my husband when it first started to come and help me, do what? I’m not sure because when he came in the house I could not speak I was in so much pain.
Can I tell you how frustrating this experience was? I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. I intended to do some scrapbooking. I came and sat down and started to work and was highly motivated. FIFTEEN MINUTES into my relaxing scrapbooking project… BOOM! My feet just exploded in pain. WTF? I just don’t get it.
The pain lasted about 10 or 15 minutes… but my emotional state was not great. I was frustrated… very frustrated. I silently cried tears once again out of frustration for this pain causing havoc in my life. I was angry for getting emotional, which of course, didn’t help… Needless to say, I was exhausted afterwards. I ended up falling asleep for a couple hours.
I did get up and push myself up and off the couch and back to my scrapbooking project. I am very proud of myself. I finished ahead of my goal for the day. I will celebrate that!
It was a very rough day, but I made it through! I need to celebrate the small victories more often… Today I was so much better than my FMS!!
It’s so hard to remember that we are more than our condition, stronger, better… we need to celebrate our victories no matter how big or small… we need to lift ourselves up when we walk around the block for the first time, when we have a pain-free day, when we can remember where we parked the car… I am learning, with this condition, I need to celebrate all my wins. I don’t know how much pain I will be in tomorrow, but I can do my best to control my environment and stay positive.